Whats next?

People are asking what happened?
Where am i going next?
What im doing next?
Guess what i cant answer those question
When i, myself dont even knw
Whichever women or girls i set my eyes on, i can get her within 2 weeks.
So...
At the very end im still not happy
Where is the challenge?
Sex is really over-rated
Giving urself to me only turns me off
I don find u interesting if u keep giving urself to me...
So stop doing so...
But im getting tired of this cos maybe i find that wats the point when every women i set my eyes on
its just a matter of finding her "key"
N every single day,
Finding that "key" to a woman's heart or pants is getting way too easy for me...
Too easy that its turning me off from even trying to put effort in the first place.
I wan something more than this...
I wan challenge...
I need someone who could keep my interest,
I need someone who can make me feel "alive" again...
N im not refering on physical terms but also mentally n emotionally.
When the women start talking i don hear conversations,
I hear only "key" words...
Are my brains rewired n progrmed to function this way after all these years?
I cant feel love...
I cant love anymore...
Its just companionship, i cant feel further then that!
Whats wrong with me?!
Thats the reason why i stopped dating u after a week.
So don take it personal.
Its just me...
I don want u to get the wrong idea.
If i wanted to sleep with u, u knw i can do it after the 2nd night...
But i made a choice not to...
Like i said i find it a turn off when u keep throwing urself on me.
So where am i going?
How long i will be missing?
I need to find my purpose.
Whats my higher cause?
Alot of questions with no answers.

DISAPPEARING ACT

time for my disappearing act again.
im sorry evan for not coming to power to make u drunk for ur bday
haha
but u knw my reason ya
i had enough the whole year of 2009 partying
i need to really start preparing myself mentally n physically
and the best way is to disappear
so i can avoid all the distractions.
goodbye. =)

disapointment

freaking disappointed
already asked u not to make plans yet u do.
well forget it.

Canon powershot s90

weeeeeee!
i got my s90!
went ladies night
don feel fun anymore clubing
pics make look tat im having fun but the fact is...
anws is it a crime to be persistent and determine???
if it is then call me a convict. =)
say it to my face hahaha
well time to take more photos
im joining the powershot s90 street challenge
finding inspiration now hahha!

Shouldnt have did...

Thinking back i feel stupid.
Hah hmm i wasnt thinking straight at the point of time not cos of u but other factors came into play.
One chance was gd enough but i gave u more than that.
Shouldnt have did.
End of the day when i think back.
No point too.
Don think tat i was serious with u cos i was just looking for someone to take my mind of things.
N thats the real fact.
Im sorry that i led u on thinking tat i was serious if u think i was la.
But oh well bygones be bygones ya? =)
All the lies i told u...
U will find out sooner or later...
Im just like tat.
Manipulative n sly n stuff.
Im Really sorry ya! =)
U got a long way to go
So go on girl =)
Anws enough with all this shit
I need to be back on track with my stuff.
One year Prep for ranger, train my body, photography, n enjoy the life!
Hah bali trip been cancel
Guess where im going?!
Fucking batam!
But oh well somewhere new.
Mabel told me its a great place to relax n chill so why not.
You better be a gd tour guide ya!
Its my virgin trip to Batam!
We are gonna stay at Holiday inn
Thats the plan hope it doesnt change anymore.
Hahahah
WE'RE AT THE HOTEL, MOTEL, HOLIDAY INN! =D

its never too late...

great!
i already found a buyer for my casiop exilim EX-H10
and already got a good deal for my canon powershot s90!
fucking cold now
freezing my arse!
argh!
anws 12th naumi hotel weeeeeeee
jeff complained to me he was robbed at butter fac last night!
hahaha
see la brother ask u to stick to power u don wan lol
lucky u never wear ur Tag out
if not i think morning u wake up sure u cry!
cant wait to get my hands on the S90!
someone told me that in order to forget somthing or someone
u need to keep yourself occupied
well...
im starting a new hobby!
photography!
so expect alot of photos to be uploaded soon
=)

CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY!

FUCKING HAPPY!
i wasnt expecting anything for christmas from u
but...
anws thank you "Lamb"!
ur new nick name! hahahaha
got a HP mini 311 netbook!!!
and a casio exilim EX-H10!!!
both gift is suitable cos december i be travelling ard!
im fucking happy
though i wished it was a cannon 7d dslr
but oh well hehehe.
ur bribing me with gifts...
hmmm wat do u want?
there is always something u want if u treat me good!
so...
im waiting for u to open ur mouth n tell me
or give me hints!
tsk ass! hehehe =P
but really im grateful and thankful for the gift!
really appreciate it!
rieanne is not going to bali
so i take it mabel not going too!
hmm
argh no matter wat im still going i've made up my mind!
why is it when i put "i miss u" as a status on msn
people keep asking me who?
OR say its andrea or worst some random girls name! fuck!
aiyo people its in general la
im missing my friends la!
so stop asking!
cant wait for Bali with my new cam haha! =P
see u people! =)